I love being a mom. It is seriously the best job ever. Today Audrey and I had so much fun! We played with toys and rolled over and she helped me fold laundry. We also got a little ironing done, but mostly during naps because Audrey didn't really like it when I ironed. We played with her stuffed bear, which she told me she named "Oooh-aah" and she sang her a song and told her a story. She is getting so talkative; it is so fun to get to make up things she might be saying. We sang more songs and told more stories, and took 3 naps! We also got to play in the bath with our fun squirty toys that Grandma Ellen gave us! We had a very good day today.
I love how motherhood has me talking about myself in third person and in plural terms. But I really do feel so great about my day, and really about the last few weeks. I feel like I'm learning how to structure my days around naptimes and running to lessons to accompany and rehearsal times and making dinners and lunches and feeding the baby and all that great stuff. I feel so much more like a wife and a mother now. Rather- I feel so much more successful. I think I'm doing a good job of balancing work and play and cuddle time. I want more than anything to be able to enjoy my beautiful baby while she is little! She is growing so fast! She can almost sit up by herself now- she still needs a little propping or something around her like a blankie or pillow so she doesn't fall flat over, but she is doing so well. If she had more chub on her then she might have an easier time with it. Oh well- I love my skinny baby.
I am learning the importance of being present wherever I am, and to whoever I'm talking to. Life is so busy and moves so fast, and everyone has 10 million things to do all at once, but it is so important to make people feel they are important to you, and that they aren't just another thing on a list to check off. People need to be looked in the eyes when you talk to them, and to hear you use their name when you talk to them. I feel like I haven't really done a good job of reaching out like that in my life, and I really love people now like I never have before. I think I've had more experiences in my life, and I understand a lot more of where people are coming from. I'm trying to treat other people more like I want to be treated, I guess. A lot of this comes from my efforts with my Mary Kay business, some from my thoughts about spirituality, and a lot just from where I'm at in life right now. I'm learning how to love people and help them feel uplifted because they know me. It is such a wonderful feeling to know I can be a positive influence in other's lives just by helping them feel happy. I know when someone takes the time to make me feel good about myself, my whole day is changed and I go about my tasks with a smile rather than dreading it and just trying to "get by" until it's bedtime or naptime or whatever. I want to enjoy the time I have and the opportunities I have, and I'm trying to really love my life- it really is wonderful.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
Bigger and better
Well it's been a while since I really updated. I think I start every post with that these days. Resolution: not to start a post like that anymore. I think it's silly.
I feel like I'm desperately needing to write in my journal- it's been a while! But we are doing great! Snow is still piling up around our little house in the frozen north. I'm pretty used to it now, I think. I'm really feeling very productive these days. It's a great feeling! I feel like I'm able to use my time more efficiently while I'm awake and in between loving this gorgeous baby. She is so cute! She suddenly became much more vocal- like Friday it was like someone turned up the volume on her little voice and she started talking up a storm! I thought it was just because her daddy was home- he always brings out her smiles and her voice ten times better than I can. But even today- I went to go get her from her crib this morning and she wasn't crying, she was just sitting there looking around, talking to herself. Wow- super cute!
We finally got more tapes for our video camera. Hooray!!! I have been missing that video camera for a long time- I'm so afraid this baby is growing up too fast- and I don't want to forget all the cute little quirks she has! She loves throwing toys around these days, I think just to see what happens more than anything, and she still loves her cereal boxes. She is still teething, and sometimes it makes her very sad. No teeth yet- which is just fine with me. :) We are thinking that we will start her on rice cereal soon. At her 4 month appointment they told us we could start her on it anytime, but I just wasn't ready for my baby to eat real food yet... but we are thinking sometime soon we might start. Now that we have a video camera to tape it!
We are loving our calling as the Marriage and Family Relations class instructors. Yesterday's lesson went SO well! I'm one who was scared to death every time it was my turn to teach, but I'm getting more and more comfortable with preparing lessons and standing in front of the class. It's funny because I look at the Relief Society instructors and sometimes I wish for their jobs because it looks so much easier- women are so nice in RS and I know they would be forgiving if I didn't phrase a question right or whatever. Our Sunday School class is a little challenging- first of all we have a hard time getting people to come regularly. We have one couple that is there pretty much every week, and another couple that has been really good about coming since the beginning of the new year, and every one else comes irregularly. I'm ok with that, but I know it's hard for Thomas when one week we will have a classful of people and the next we only have 3 or 4 people come. I think that's really discouraging for him because he takes it really personally. I've never looked at it that way. We've also had a hard time getting people to participate in our lessons. There are one or two people who are really open and volunteer a lot (when they come) but sometimes it's like pulling teeth to get a comment out of people. It's getting a lot better- like I said this last week was really awesome and we had a really nice discussion about Motherhood. :)
We made a lot of goals at the beginning of the year, and we are doing ok at following some of them, but I feel like... I made too many. :( I'm going to have to go back and decide what things are most important and prioritize my goals. Ahh I wish for time... But it looks like my time is up... the baby awakes and calls me from the other room!
I feel like I'm desperately needing to write in my journal- it's been a while! But we are doing great! Snow is still piling up around our little house in the frozen north. I'm pretty used to it now, I think. I'm really feeling very productive these days. It's a great feeling! I feel like I'm able to use my time more efficiently while I'm awake and in between loving this gorgeous baby. She is so cute! She suddenly became much more vocal- like Friday it was like someone turned up the volume on her little voice and she started talking up a storm! I thought it was just because her daddy was home- he always brings out her smiles and her voice ten times better than I can. But even today- I went to go get her from her crib this morning and she wasn't crying, she was just sitting there looking around, talking to herself. Wow- super cute!
We finally got more tapes for our video camera. Hooray!!! I have been missing that video camera for a long time- I'm so afraid this baby is growing up too fast- and I don't want to forget all the cute little quirks she has! She loves throwing toys around these days, I think just to see what happens more than anything, and she still loves her cereal boxes. She is still teething, and sometimes it makes her very sad. No teeth yet- which is just fine with me. :) We are thinking that we will start her on rice cereal soon. At her 4 month appointment they told us we could start her on it anytime, but I just wasn't ready for my baby to eat real food yet... but we are thinking sometime soon we might start. Now that we have a video camera to tape it!
We are loving our calling as the Marriage and Family Relations class instructors. Yesterday's lesson went SO well! I'm one who was scared to death every time it was my turn to teach, but I'm getting more and more comfortable with preparing lessons and standing in front of the class. It's funny because I look at the Relief Society instructors and sometimes I wish for their jobs because it looks so much easier- women are so nice in RS and I know they would be forgiving if I didn't phrase a question right or whatever. Our Sunday School class is a little challenging- first of all we have a hard time getting people to come regularly. We have one couple that is there pretty much every week, and another couple that has been really good about coming since the beginning of the new year, and every one else comes irregularly. I'm ok with that, but I know it's hard for Thomas when one week we will have a classful of people and the next we only have 3 or 4 people come. I think that's really discouraging for him because he takes it really personally. I've never looked at it that way. We've also had a hard time getting people to participate in our lessons. There are one or two people who are really open and volunteer a lot (when they come) but sometimes it's like pulling teeth to get a comment out of people. It's getting a lot better- like I said this last week was really awesome and we had a really nice discussion about Motherhood. :)
We made a lot of goals at the beginning of the year, and we are doing ok at following some of them, but I feel like... I made too many. :( I'm going to have to go back and decide what things are most important and prioritize my goals. Ahh I wish for time... But it looks like my time is up... the baby awakes and calls me from the other room!
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